Mind over Matter,and Charm over both!

Was randomly drifting from one room to another when i caught several flashes of a really hot guy on television..stopped,stunned(in a good way),when the guy opened his mouth and spoke...drifted away again sadly,reflecting on the sheer waste of spectacularly good raw material.The thing is im not really an -ist,you know,of any sort.well ok,i have a strong aversion to people who use the word "like" as an interjection,as websters would call it or an incentive to disrupt law and order as i do.(13 to 18 year olds naturally exempted from my disapproval).But isnt it strange how many people in this world mistake good looks for attractiveness?Charm or "the hel-lo factor" is found in precious few humans,animals or stuffed toys for that matter(except for,i have noticed, little humans,little animals and stuffed frogs..Aphrodite has blessed them,albeit with an expiry date to her gift..well,not the stuffed frogs obviously).

Shah Rukh Khan,now,he has it.so does Aamir.which is why it does not matter how old they grow,one smile,or a glance,will still set pulses tripping.Oh,for more people like that in real life!Only since "like calls to like"and "deep calls to deep"(one of my favourite quotes from kindergarten,when i was made to write it out a hundred times to improve my handwriting,or possibly as a punishment for some minor infarction of the type which comprise my formative years...come to think of it,its one of the only quotes i can actually produce at the drop of a hat..umm where was i?)....yes..so..the charm people always end up together,being drawn by some cosmic,irresistible force pulling them towards each other like a vortex of a whirwind,like the static of an electrical storm,like the inevitability of death and taxes...i have no idea how to end this long drawn out metaphor..but you get the general idea right?!

One of my ambitions in life is to meet someone who has me at hello.Given the current state of things,that is likely to stay an unfulfilled one..who knows though..i live in hope,like the rest of wall street..

Another of my television viewings was the trailer for some martial arts movie,of the kind made popular by Jet Lee and similar people..is it all real..thats what i want to know?is it remotely possible for any human,having to obey the laws of physics, same as the rest of us,to actually leap in the air,turn a somersault using an elephants forehead ,and take two men out on the downward return?and if yes(no would be a simpler answer,i dont want it to be all imagery and other nonsense)..how do they do it?is it muscles?is it discipline?is it sheer will?all of the above?or did they somehow find a way to regulate gravity..and if so why has somebody not let the rest of us in on it???Also was the elephant in the state of suspended animation?What? What? How?....Sigh...whatever it is,i know for a fact that this will always be one of those unanswered questions of the uninitiated.

Speaking of unanswered questions,i have three which are on the top of my personal list.
a)why do pigeons exist,now that we have e-mail,telephones,post offices,clairvoyents, chickens,and a box office hit?they have become redundant in this new age,only we have been fooled by their sheer numbers into thinking that they have some purpose left..

b)Are cats really able to breach the space time continuam,as their smug expressions suggest,or are we humans merely being taken in by a species of colossal confidence tricksters,who have no more in their minds than where the next meal is coming from and whether it will put up much of a fight...but there is no denying a basic fact of life,no matter what the truth is..Cats have style..one tends to forgive them a lot,just for that..

c)And finally,will men ever become good at taking directions?...i think i just asked a rhetorical question!!har har!

well i am not showing any signs of winding down anytime soon,so will make a consious decision to log off now..going shopping today..its a cold and windy day,the kind when you wish for impossible things and nameless desires are born inside you..jeez,i have GOT to stop with the hyperbole..too much coffee,thats what it is ...see ya soon,hopefully when i am coherent once more..

Of fantasy,fiction and facts...

I was walking down the street ,when the wind blew a scrap of newspaper my way which danced in the periphery of my vision long enough for me to read the headline.."God hates the Higgs particle".so before i google it to find out what the higgs particle is and why our usually impenetrable God hated it ,i would like to take three guesses on this..

1)The Higgs is actually a tiny nucleus of supercharged energy,moving randomly through the universe,changing the pattern of man's destiny and changing His well laid plans...and the gods hate improvisation..

2)It is causing subtle changes in brain waves patterns,so when people are praying or cursing ,the Higgs somehow changes the messages reaching the gods,causing chaos and confusion in indralok and completely and maliciously messing up their information systems

3)The higgs is actually a black hole,only instead of all matter it sucks up the power and energy of the universe ,thus rendering the gods weak and leading to increasing paranoia in the heavens regarding the involvement of certain scientists in this,which in turn is leading certain of the more unstable ones to take it out on mankind in general...actually,i think this explains a lot!

And now to see what it really is...

ten minutes later.....(as they say in the plays!!)

Hello,so apparently the Higgs particle can travel back in time..that is it could,if it actually existed.So the researchers at Niels Bohr's institute in Copenhagen say that if the higgs particle is ever created by a gigantic collision inside a particle accelerator,it will cause a ripple backward in time,leading to a chain of events which will prevent its creation in the future.Apparently there is some kind of natural quantum censor that prevents it from ever being produced....hence the postulate that God hates it,so wont let it come into existence.

Actually,this is even more random and interesting than my theories...humph.

uggh,another day in the delhi metro.its becoming this huge headache to travel by it every day,given that it has become the new blueline...got very dramatic and insane by the time my station came..im pretty sure that this level of excitement early on every morning is going to kill me...

Got a shock this morning when i woke up and found there is no butter in the house..Dad made some feeble excuses about butter being out of stock in the markets and asked whether i would like to try those synthetic butter thingies..barely repressed a shudder as i told him that there are some things in the world which should be hung without a trial...

Bend in the road

Well,its been quite some time since i logged in..life has been a roller coster ride..you never really appreciate the meaning of this phrase until you've actually been on one of these rides from hell..holy God,the mindnumbing terror and tiny part exhilaration apart,my entire being is mostly concentrated on not throwing up!!uggh..and thats what this week has been like..lost a friend..and then found out that,after all,i hadnt..disillusionment and faith,relief and misery,guilt and anger...a real roller coaster ride..

And then eventually you accept the truth of who you are ..and who the people you love are as well..and the fact that no matter how much people change,the bonds that bind them can weaken only if they so choose..it was a strangely liberating realisation ..to be sure that come hell or high water, some things are meant to be...

Was waiting at a random stranger's house,earlier in the week ,not even sure what i was doing there,and i picked up an issue of Outlook magazine..and two things happened..one,i read a line of Tagore's poetry.."Nirjan raate,nishabho paye,chole eschecho kano?"..and it immediately captured my imagination..in an instant flash i saw her looking at him..so many questions in her eyes..and i wanted to know the entire story..so now im on a quest to find out what happened on that nirjaan raate..

And two,i read an article by Arundhati Roy on the Maoist situation.The thing about this author is that i disliked her book immensely..which could be a compliment in itself ,had it not been for the nature of dislike..it depresses the hell out of me,which i dont really mind,but the thing is that i found it entirely forgettable...unlike say,Wuthering Heights,which depresses me as well,but in which not only do i find a morbid fascination with the inevitability of the destruction which comes to the protagonists but which also makes me wonder over and over again,Why? why is it not the kind of love i can understand?why are the charecters not likeable?why do they keep coming together when they almost hate each other?why does it not even make sense sometimes and still is not something i can forget...the other day,reading a totally random book offered a interesting insight on this one...that maybe the only redeeming point of Cathy and Heathcliff was their love for each other.. and maybe the only redeeming point about this book is that it dosent let you forget it..

okay that was major digression..anyway,the thing is that her maoist article seemed insightful,researched,and passionate..it hooked me and i wanted to actually know more about the situation..being the political illiterate that i am,this is a major breakthrough for me.

So this is me..heading towards a new dawn of political awareness and literary discovery..feeling at peace and eager for tommorow after a long time..personal conflicts and relationships sorted out with a strange feeling of certainity in the decisions taken..somethings lost but a lot more gained.... i am happy..and life has promise again.